Di Hari Raya

Isyraf....

Isyraf,

I am so sorry for what happened to you last night...
I am really really really sorry..
I love you so much that I can't forgive myself for what happened
But I do hope that you will forgive me....

Shopping in Midvalley

Yeyey!!Bestnye dapat shopping!!

I am so happy!! I know Mama will buy something for me!!

I am so tired already.. Now it's time to go back and sleep..

Who's that? Who is calling my name??!!??

Isyraf Again!!

Isyraf Is Sleeping

Ssssshhhhh...Isyraf is sleeping..

Caterpillar Story

Mama always read caterpillar story to you, remember?

From a book I bought for you

And you will smile whenever you listen to it..

Here is the story...

Where is caterpillar?

Here comes caterpillar, looking for some lunch

Yummy green leaves to munch, munch, munch

Caterpillar sees another tasty treat

A juicy red tomato so good to eat

Caterpillar wants to find a place to sleep

He crawls under a leaf

Ssshhhh...don't make a peep

Where is caterpillar?

My oh my

Caterpillar woke up as a butterfly!!!

Your Songs

Let me sing your favourite songs...

"A B C D E F G, H I J K L M N,
O P Q R S T U, V W X Y Z...

Isyraf likes this ABC song so much
You will smile whenever mama sings this song

and another song you like is..

"Isyraf, Isyraf, Isyraflah ratu hati mama
Bila mama berduka, Isyraf hiburkan selalu
Isyraf, Isyraf, Isyraflah ratu hati mama..."

You know what, you are my 'ratu', sunshine and everything..
I love you...

Mama Luvs U

Isyraf,

I love you so much
More than words can describe
I care so much about you
More than I care about myself
I miss you so much
That you are always in my heart

With beloved ones...

Isyraf - 3 month

Gathering

26th May was Pak Njang Ki's convo + mama's birthday and 27th was mak teh own's birthday. So semua turun ke KL iaitu:

Wan and Mak Tok

Pak Long and Mak Long

Pak Ngah, Mak Ngah, K Aina and K Asyfa

Pak Teh, Mak Teh and Abang Udin

Pak Cik Amim

Mak Su Ifa

Yang dah memang kat KL:

Abi, Mama and Isyraf

Pak Njang Ki

So, all together 17 of us..Bestnye dapat jumpa semua..

25th malam tu gi makan kat Shah Alam, restaurant kat tepi tasik..

And on 26th, after convo, makan kat Midvalley before semua bertolak balik..

Sempat beli jam baru for Mak Tok!!

Cant's wait to gather again!!!

Eh, baru perasan, tak de pun ambik gambar Abi, Mama and Isyraf...Sian kat kita kan..huhuhu

Milk Collection

Isyraf, rindunya mama kat Isyraf..Tak sabar nak jumpa Isyraf kejap lagi..:)

Isyraf, hari ni mama dapat pump 4oz++ je..But ada la improvement dari minggu lepas..Mama harap sangat dapat breastfeedkan Isyraf semula..

Weekend ni mama ada meeting kat Seremban, Isyraf ikut mama ye??Nanti masa mama meeting Isyraf main ngan abi ok?

Luv you...

Miss You

Isyraf, mama misses you so much...

Isyraf - 2 month

I am so sorry..

Isyraf sayang mama…

Mama nak Isyraf tau yang mama rasa sedih sangat sebab mama tak dapat nak breastfeedkan Isyraf. But mama juga nak Isyraf tau yang mama is working hard to increase my milk supply so that mama boleh bagi Isyraf minum walaupun through bottle.

Mungkin silap mama awal dulu sebab kurang ilmu. Walaupun sejak pregnant lagi mama memang bersemangat nak exclusively breastfeedkan sayang, tapi sebab kurang ilmu plan mama tak menjadi. Kalau diberi peluang, mama nak ulang balik semuanya dari awal so that mama can take necessary actions to ensure that mama can exclusively breastfeed you. Until now, mama rasa sedih sangat. Mama rasa ralat sangat. Tiap-tiap hari mama berdoa pada Allah agar diberi peluang to breastfeedkan Isyraf semula.

Isyraf, mama minta maaf sebab tak dapat jalankan tanggungjawab mama to breastfeed Isyraf. Kalau boleh, memang mama nak sangat2 breastfeedkan Isyraf. Mama harap sangat usaha mama nak increasekan milk supply akan berhasil. Dan mama harap sangat Isyraf akan nak semula direct breastfeed dengan mama. Bahagianya mama kalau semua ni jadi kenyataan…

Cuma mama nak Isyraf tau, mama sentiasa cuba buat yang terbaik untuk Isyraf. Sebab mama sayangkan Isyraf. Sayang sangat. Isyraf buah hati mama. Mama sentiasa doakan agar Isyraf diberikan yang terbaik. Kalau boleh, mama memang nak sangat jaga Isyraf sendiri. Cuma buat masa ni, keadaan belum mengizinkan. Memang sedih sangat mama terpaksa tinggalkan Isyraf dengan Auntie Lina bila mama pergi kerja. But mama belum ada pilihan lain. Mama harap Isyaraf faham keadaan mama ye.

Isyraf, I love you so much. Mama doakan Isyraf akan jadi hamba Allah yang beriman dan bertaqwa dan anak yang soleh. My hugs and kisses for you.

Ahmad Isyraf Zhareef

From born until 1 month old...

Dear Sayang Mama

Sayang mama, how are you doing today? I'm sure you are doing and feeling great as I can feel you are stretching and exercising inside there :). Remember that we went to see Dr Fauziah yesterday? She said you were doing fine and you were still enjoying being in my cute (is it still considered cute?) belly. She said she'd give one more week to see the progress and if it's still no sign of sayang mama is coming out by 3rd or 4th March, mama will be induced then.

Actually mama doesn't mind to go through whatever it takes to bring you to this world as long as you're safe, healthy and happy. But, you know what, mama just couldn't wait to hold you. I want to kiss and caress your cheek. I want to give the world to you. So, if you feel that you are ready to see the world, mama is more than ready to bring you here.

Baby, you know what, we can and will do this together. The most important thing, we both must always pray to Allah that he'll give us the best coz only He knows what's best for us.

With lots of luvs,
Mama

Just Can't Wait

Ntah kenapa aku rasa tak sabar sangat nak jumpa my baby. Boleh kata tiap-tiap hari aku tertunggu-tunggu dan tertanya-tertanya 'hari ni ke?'. Eventhough my expected due date lagi 11 hari, aku harap sangat aku akan deliver cepat. Kadang-kadang tu rasa pressure gak. Setiap kali rasa sakit sket kat dalam perut ni, aku mula la terfikir 'Contraction ke?'. Walaupun takut nak hadapi rasa sakit bersalin, tapi ntahlah. Rasa tak sabar tu lagi lebih kot. Aku selalu bercakap ngan baby, 'baby nak keluar bila?' or 'baby nak keluar hari ni tak?' or 'kalau baby dah ready, baby keluarla ye, mama ngan abi dah tak sabar nak jumpa baby'. Tapi tu la, bila fikir-fikir balik, Allah lebih tau bila masa yang terbaik untuk baby keluar. So, aku kena sabar. Insyaallah, that would be the best for us. Yang penting semuanya berjalan lancar, dipermudahkan dan selamat. Tak pe baby, mama tunggu sampai baby dah betul-betul ready ok?

Let's Exercise

Orang kata exercise dapat memudahkan proses bersalin nanti. So, aku pun ikutlah suami yang ke Taman Cempaka masa hujung minggu. Suami jogging dan aku cuma jalan-jalan. Aku rasa sepanjang aku berjalan tu, aku sorang je yang sarat mengandung. Anyway, memang bestla dapat jalan-jalan.